I’ve always talked about believe in yourself, loving yourself and having confidence to chase your dreams.
But what I haven’t told you is I have insecurities, too.
With such an innovative generation, we are always comparing ourselves to someone next to us who are and are not in our field. Everyone runs a blog of some sort, social media fame, and being our own brand nowadays. We are all entrepreneurs – the age where we thrive through business plans and let our creativity shine.
For me, for as long as I can remember, I always had insecurities when it came to my writing. Quick throwback: when it came to peer review in English or AP Literature, I dreaded it. Man, this person has to see my writing? What a flaw. Everyone has their own writing technique.
I compared my writing to my peers at the time. Now? It’s has not changed much, but I know that I am not hard on myself as much as I was in high school. For one, I have gain confidence, but I relapse once in awhile. When I do go on negative-comments-binge, I take a deep breath, and tell myself that we all have different approaches.
I write about my adventures, my experiences. No one can take that away from me. No one can dictate my words to express my endeavors.
Let me eliminate the comparisons between others – just from my perspective and thoughts about myself. I always get into this funk where I begin to critique every spec of myself and writing.
You are hard on yourself because you only expect the best out of yourself. Well, that’s my mentality.
- What if I am not as a great writer? Will I be enough?
- I know I need to progress and grow.
- How come I cannot explain things in a eloquently manner?
- Am I ever going to find my voice? What is my niche?
- Will I ever be published through a large media outlet?
… and the questions of insecurities and self-doubt can be infinite if I continue to think about it. I hope you know I am exaggerated on the “infinite” part.
And I shall continue to practice writing and quit doubting myself. Close my post with this quote:
Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will. – Karim Seddiki
by the way – do you like my blog’s facelift? Minimal – just the way I like it.
*artwork done by S.