To 2017, that is.
Although there is still time left, I have already begun reflecting on this year and how everything unfolded.
I’ve learned a lot, and I know I say that very often, but hey, we’re all living and learning right? That is life.
Despite the World’s troubles and living in the Trump Era, 2017 was good to me. I will be honest – I lost a lot this year, too. People, mainly. But as we age, we will learn that time does not measure the value of a relationship, but rather the depth of it. As much it pains me to accept certain losses, it is all part of life. And … I have to get comfortable with that concept.
Regarding my dating life, it is unfortunate that I tend to learn about my worth after an end to a toxic relationship, but this time was different.
This year, I bid farewell the whole self-blame bullshit. I began to realize that I am not always the problem. And although two souls can be made for one another, if you two don’t essentially align with each other’s values, goals – it won’t work out. No matter how much you try and ignore the fact.
I’ve learned to walk away.
From people, places, things and a job that no longer served me. Who did a disservice to my happiness, peace, and sanity. More importantly, walking away from nouns that did not align with my life.
But here were the good outcomes – I am now in an environment where my skills and creativity are being utilized and challenged. But most importantly, learning about a business’ infrastructure first-hand so I can build my own in the near future.
Surrounded by women who lead with compassion and brains in conversations. Challenge me when I need to be, but mindful of delivery. That’s key.
thecnnekt. This once-a-passion-project-now-evolved-into-a-serious-small-business has given me the opportunity to meet incredible people. People who aren’t / are like me. Not only networking and meeting fucking talented women, but learning from them. Man, I can’t describe how much thecnnekt makes me feel, but it truly has given me purpose and meaning to my life.
Another huge highlight – Shrimp Chips and Chocolate Milk– my proudest work of this year. It is shocking to see your writing made into a short film and showcase in a local art show in Brooklyn. I made this announcement when I heard, but this was an official select in the St. Louis Film Festival (:
Oh, I also got a grip of my finances. I mean, I am still in debt, big time, but the fact that I recognize it and apply myself, means something. Also, in this process, I have acknowledge long-term goals like buying a home (something that I saw impossible). Yes, big goals.
While going through a heartache around Q4, I adopted a cat name Bagel to help me fill in the void. She’s become the love of my life. Now, I know what motherhood feels like. She just gives me so much joy despite her litter tracks in the apartment. I think she loves me, too.
I am just feeling very grateful for all the experiences this year. The good, the bad, all of it which makes me excited to go into 2018 with confidence and strength.